At my agency they kicked me out so..I'm not famous anymore....but I don't mind it, I wanted to leave as soon as possible

anyways I just don't get it what is happenning here?? ANnooo it is X-mas and the hell showed up right now....mouu

Yucchi tell me are you still ready for that date? I mean I became very poor,and I might can't pay anything but....I would like to make it cool but what happened is happened... Yucchi hope it's okay

I I..dunno what to do anymore...my dreams..my life...everything....So I..I'm just crying all day..aand I can't find my closest friend anywhere?...where does he went?T_T Where is that guy with whom I done a push ups contest? Where did my favourite teacher went? I miss them....

I don't get it, I don't get it!
Again I feel left behind, I lost someone important to me again.
I don't want to leave but my heart is slowly falling into pieces.
I'm not that strong to keep up with all this.
I'm not strong enough to say goddbye to everyone.
I'm not strong enough to live without those who left.
I'm just a weak guy, who can't get why life is so unfair.

I'm hurt right now, I hoped and wished so much everything could go back to those happy days...
Again faith is grinning at me, laughing at me.
I lost right?
Yeah I did.

amidst this christmas spirit, i'm confused. :/

who's leaving and who's staying and what's going on???

I'm back from spending time with my family. Its really sad that people are leaving though...Some of my best friends here have now left.

Well its almost christmas time. So here is my christmas list.

Christmas List:
5. New Sketching supplies
4. A new Guitar
3. A new keyboard
2. New Friends
1. Someone to care for me

Hope to see everyone around

1. White christmas
2. A new bag
3. sweets

Actually, I already have what I want XD

I really hope we will have white christmas. I like snow XDDDDDDDDD
A new bag, because my old one tore Q.Q
And sweets, because everyone like them, ne~
XDDDDDDDDDDD

I feel so bad today...
I was so hapay that Crhistmas was coming and now, reading around diaries I feel so sad.
I wanted, at least this year, to celebrate a happy Crhistmas with my friends, but it seems like I won't be able to do it...

I really hoped Kuro will go back to its lively atmosphere, with students, laughing all together... It was my second dearest wish really.
Anyway I can't stand this anymore.
I don't want to leave this place, but I can't feel so inferior anymore.
I'm just a normal student...
I really hope Kuro will go back to the past happy days. I spent here 6 months. I feel like I'm leaving a part of my heart here.

So please, don't force me to leave.
I love you all, but I can't keep up with this heavy atmosphere anymore.

Ja mata.
Maru

My wishlist:

8) Fortis IQ blackboard-style watch
7) The guitar that was signed by Mick Jagger, Keith Richards, Eric Clapton, Brian May, Jimmy Page, David Gilmour, Jeff Beck, Pete Townsend, Mark Knopfler, Ray Davis, Liam Gallagher, Ronnie Wood, Tony Iommi, Angus & Malcolm Young, Paul McCartney, Sting, Ritchie Blackmore, Def Leppard, and Bryan Adams. <3
6) Burberry Beat perfume for men :) It smells awesome.
5) For this christmas to be one that is filled with awesome memories.
4) For mother to be happy up there.
3) For my family to be healthy and happy always.
2) For everyone's wishes(on their list and not) to come true.
1) For my wishes(those written here and not) to come true.

Now I'm off to wrap the presents i had bought a few days back :P Can't wait to see them under the awesome christmas tree we have in school now ^^

Well I will add my wishlist bit later hope it is okay, I need to find out my ideas and I try hard so just wait a bit.

anyways on saturday morning my callendar+ single will be in the stores. and now I won't give any free-single to anyone!!

[occ. Koki will give an album+callendar and few other gifts to the others so that's why, oh but I had to keep this secret, damnxD]

So before the relase I can show u the callendar so here:


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and the cover of the single:

Hello minna!
Genkidesuka??
I hope so! <3
Waah! I'm so happy to write my Christmas Wishlist! =3
It's a long time since I wrote the last one!

Dear Santa,
Here is Nakamaru Yuichi.
This year I treid to be a really good boy.
Even though I think the choise I made can make me a bad boy :(

If Santa thinks I did the right choise then here there's what I'd like to recieve.

10. Anything sweet is loved ^__^
9. A hamster (if I can take him/her with me here at school).
8. A pair of new boots.
7. Some new clothes, anything tight grey, black or white is fine.
6. An acquarium (still if I can take it here at school)
5. A necklace. Hand made could be really great! <3
4. I wish Kuro will get tones of new students, and we'll all enjoy classes together!
3. I wish Koki's career will shine more and more.
2. I wish our love will never end.

This is the most important thing in my heart. I really believe this Christmas will be perfect if Santa could relize just this one.

1. I wish everyone I care about, everyone I love will be happy.
And find someone really important to him/her, that will make him/her always smile.



That's all. I don't really need anything, I'm happy with what life gave me up until now. I just really hope everyone will find his/her own happiness.
Thanks for reading Santa!

Merry Christmas to you too.
With love,
Yuichi Nakamaru.

[occ. sorry I haven't updated for a while with Juri:S anyways who added Nagase-sensei to their friend list have to wait a bit I'm not using him often only at the school events]

Sugooiiiiiii Minnaa I have new friends and with Yamada-kun we will do carolling and my baka nii-chan will be a reindeer, he is so silly.
Anyways I figured out my wishlist,it isn't much but that's what I want


WISH LIST


6. Lot's of chocolates
5. Expensive rice
4. Friends
3. few teddy bears
2. Books
1. Sweets

DAY

Restaurant UT today~

( Day 11 → A photo of you taken recently )

andandand~ I'm not a camwhore.. Serious!

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DAY



( Day 10 → A photo of you taken over ten years ago )

Emotional attachments with non-living things. Yep, me.

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I went out of school this afternoon to go christmas shopping! Presents are a must during this season of giving ^^*sighs* My wallet feels so much lighter now :'( Think I'm going to have to start eating leaves and bark to survive soon :S When i came back, i saw Junno's flyer!!! I'm here with them now ^^ Let's see how this goes! *updated through mobile*

I know, Someone shoot me.




I made my own FT ISLAND Whistles!

Only $1 per whistle! $1.30 if you want it with the Balloon and $1.50 if you want it with a multi-colored string! (place your order and tell me where you wanna hang your whistle!)
Payment and collection n the Concert day itself! Leave me a PM in Livejournal or through MSN at lmy12910033@hotmail.com

only 40 30sets left!
(Only selling to Singaporeans going for Sundown Festival, Seoul'd Out Concert!)

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DAY



( Day 09 → A photo you took )

I'm a good student alright!

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Konnichi wa minna-san,
I'm back ^___^

First I want to apologize for my absence. I was seriously sick the last 4 (?) weeks.
I'm really sorry for all the trouble I gave you T____________T
I hope you aren't mad at me, though I would understand it.

Second I want to tell you guys what I did the last 4 weeks (except sleeping and eating XD)
In the first two weeks I had a really high fever, so I don't exactly remember anything XD
In the third week it went down, but not enough to leave the bed.
I was reading a magazine as my mom came into my room and told me the school will be closed. At first I thought it's my imagination that played some prank on me but then I asked again. I was really sad. A few days later my mother told me that the school will remain closed but we can continue living in our dorms. I felt like a stone fell from my heart.
In the fourth week I could actually leave the bed but my doctor said I should stay at home, at least this week.
It was in this week that my parents and me talked about our little dispute we had before I fell sick. I can say they really felt bad for what they said to me, but I think I can understand them. They said I should take my time to find my true love and that I should not forget to concentrate on school XD
So, I think everything is alright again.

And now I'm here again.
I'm really happy about it ^.^
I can't wait to meet all of you again, but first I will go to bed now.
The doctor said I should sleep as much as I can to fully recover. (Because I left a little earlier than I should have :P)
So, I'm off, ne ^.^

Diary Entry 11 End

Ah..finally I came back from New York, Finally Japanese air again xD

Maah...I have to tell u guys to smell Japanese air again is soo cool. The callendar will be relased soon oh and have to tell they put fake-hair into my hair and they painted it to bit orange or reddish I dunno the colorxD

But I already re-colored it coz I don't like that color so I have long black hair again...

a..anyways yet I'm busy with the X-mas single I'm gonna relase...on the 20th of December I can't wait to X'mas I really love that day in the year... and the new year parties....oh aand Yucchi I didn't even think about that going to parties;)

a..anyways I saw few new people here...I guess 2 of them are teachers..but I dunno who were them so I haven't really greeted them because I don't know who are them.. I'm sorry for that oh and I saw Ryosuke-kun and Satoshi-kun here before I left aand again WELCOME HERE!!! the other 2 people whom I met I dunno who are them or well are they teachers??

Maa.. Yucchii when will you take Kokichoo to Okinawa??*puppy eyes*
After the single is relased and I made a performance at X-mas I'm clearly free.;)

A..anyways I'm free today so if you wanna talk with me I'm in my room.

DAY

Monday blues

( Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad  )
People killing people kills me.

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